Sunday, December 04, 2005
Let the heart do the talking
its 2:50 AM..another sleepless night..i've turned nocturnal for the past few nites..Despite of being so tired, i am still wide awake..i dunno why..
Lots of questions in my head..(imagine sja mcm pokok apple yg labat..wtf?!eh sorry that was totally irrelevant!See..aku melalut!) i wish i haf the answers..and if only i can just soak my head in the water so that the confusion will dissolve in it..
i loathe this 'sudden unexplainable' feeling..i cudnt bring myself to put a halt to it..it will come & go..but it has always been there lately..i guess the past has transformed me into dis insecure beatch..
Out of the blue, i felt so scared..fear that every step i make is a mistake..wish i can put these tot in a simple language so that it'll be much easier to swallow it in..*sigh heavily*
Sometimes i think i make too many wishes in life..and when my wish is granted..i dunno how to deal with it..i took the opportunity for granted..repeating the same stewpid mistakes altho i know all along that the consequences will hurt the ppl ard me ;(
Yet..i chose to be blind, letting my heart to take full control of my brain..(sumbody pls hit me hard!!)
Now listening to a few sappy rojak kinda songs..from Peterpan to Kelly clarkson..Dewa..cT..Marcell..repeating it over & over since they r currently on my #1 list! its amazing how music can touch us in a tremendous way..Looking back, i remembered how it helped me to overcome my sadness..and most importantly to get back on my feet and move on..
Dear readers, sorry i noe u r lost..ignore my nonsense rambling..im lost too ;) Maybe, i haf slept too long and still waiting for sum1 to wake me up from this lunatic dream..but sumhow deep down inside, i cant pretend or deny that dis is real and i just haf to accept it..
Yes..indeed..reality bites!! :s
i feel like jogging now!!!!! seriously!
